你是薄雾下的星辰，明亮却有着隐忍的哀伤。

你是月光下的银树，优雅又泛着苍白的沉默。

你是林地上的马驹，高贵且带着金色的温柔。

你是水池底的珍珠，寂寞而淌着无声的泪水。

护戒使者、双塔奇兵、王者归来。

Peter Jackson给予法拉墨的戏份是如此吝啬，只有在完整版的十个小时里，才能细细的凝视。

而从此再无法挪开目光。

Boromir:The victory belongs to faramir also

Denethor :But for faramir, this city would still be standing. Were you not entrusted to protect it?

Faramir:I would have done, but our numbers were too few

Denethor :You let the enemy walk in and take it on a whim. Always you cast a poor reflection on me.

Faramir:That is not my intent.

你的喉结缓缓滑动，面如死灰。

你微微张开嘴，却无从辩驳这恶毒的指责。

Faramir:If there is need to go to Rivendell, send me in his stead

Denethor:You? Oh, I see. A chance for faramir, captain of Gandor to show his quality. I think not. I trust this mission only to your brother. the one who will not fail me.

于是你的眼神更加黯淡。

Faramir: <Unsheathes his sword> So... this is the answer to all the riddles. Here in the wild I have you. Two halflings and a host of men at my call. The Ring of power within my grasp.
<Faramir lifts the Ring from Frodo's neck with the tip of his sword.>
Faramir: A chance for Faramir, captain of Gondor, to show his quality.

当日父亲的冷嘲热讽，一字一句都是你的地狱。

你只是为了要得到他的注意，却等待的如此之久，久得足以凉透骨髓。

Madril: You know the laws of our country, the laws of your father. If you let them go, your life will be forfeit.
Faramir: Then it is forfeit. Release them.

坚毅而果断的命令。

“One can never measure up man who had the One Ring in his grasp-and willingly let it go.”

Here do I swear fealty and service to Gondor, in peace or war, in living or dying, from this hour henceforth, until my lord release me, or death take me.
这是皮聘对刚铎许下的誓言，更像是你对刚铎高尚而纯粹的忠诚感。

就像所有冷静沉着的将军一样，把利剑刺进敌人的胸膛，骑着剽悍的骏马踏平遍野尸骨。战场是你的归宿。

但这并非源于血液中对战斗的欲望，你并非生来就是一个骑士，你对权力没有贪婪，你对胜利没有渴求。

你不像哥哥那样如此强烈的试图挽回昔日的荣耀，你不像伊欧墨能毅然离开被蒙蔽了的国王和令人窒息的污浊，你只是你，你既不是波罗莫也不是阿拉贡，你不是王冠朝杖的痴迷者，你也不是盔甲弓箭的崇拜者。

你只是你，一个不被宠爱的小儿子。

“Faramir realizes he's never going to live up to the expectations of his father.”

Though you never avoid living in the shadow of your older brother, you haven’t given up your affection to Boromir, to Denethor, and to Gondor.

所以你是一个最出色的男人。

Denethor: (to Faramir) I do not think we should so lightly abandon the outer defenses. Defenses that your brother long held intact.
Faramir: What would you have me do?
Denethor: I will not yield the river and Pelennor unfought. Osgiliath must be retaken.
Faramir: My Lord, Osgiliath is overrun.
Denethor: Much must be risked in war. Is there a captain here who still has the courage to do his lord's will?
(Faramir watches his father with a saddened expression.)
Faramir: (voice breaking) You wish now that our places had been exchanged. That I had died and Boromir had lived.
(Denethor is silent before answering, the expression on his face serious.)
Denethor: (as if to himself) Yes, I wish that.
(Denethor brings a goblet to his lips and drinks. Faramir looks at his father, tears forming in his eyes.)
Faramir: Since you are robbed of Boromir, I will do what I can in his stead.
(Faramir bows to his father and turns to leave. Denethor merely sits with the wine goblet in his hands and is silent. Faramir stops and turns to look at Denethor.)
Faramir: If I should return, think better of me, father.
Denethor: (coldly and doesn't look up) That will depend on the manner of your return.

The scene shifts to Minas Tirith. Faramir rides through the streets of the city with a small group of soldiers, on their way to attempt to retake Osgiliath. The people of the city watch them as they go by, sad looks of despair mirrored on all of their faces. The women throw flowers at the horses' feet, and hand small bouquets to the soldiers.)
Gandalf: Faramir! Faramir! (Gandalf pushes his way through the crowd, and begins walking beside Faramir.)
Gandalf: Your father's will has turned to madness! Do not throw away your life so rashly!
Faramir: Where does my allegiance lie, if not here?
(Gandalf watches as Faramir rides away.)
Gandalf: Your father loves you, Faramir! He will remember it before the end.
(The soldiers form ranks, and ride toward Osgiliath. The people of Minas Tirith line the walls to watch them go. Orcs in the ruined city raise their heads from behind broken boulders, and watch the oncoming riders. Back in the Great Hall, Denethor continues to eat.)
Denethor: Can you sing, Master Hobbit?
Pippin: Well, yes. At least, well enough for my own people. But we have no songs for great halls and evil times.
Denethor: (grimly) And why should your songs be unfit for my halls? Come, sing me a song.
(Pippin seems in thought, as if finding the words, and then sings:)
Home is behind, the world ahead,
And there are many paths to tread.
Through shadow, to the edge of night,
Until the stars are all alight.
Mist and shadow, cloud and shade,
All shall fade! All shall fade ...
(While Pippin is singing, the scene flashes back and forth between Pippin singing, Denethor eating, and Faramir riding to suicide in Osgiliath. Pippin is close to tears. He bravely holds it in, but when he finishes singing he begins to cry.

The gate is opened and an unconscious  Faramir is dragged in by a horse, his body struck with arrows.)

圣白树已经濒临枯死。

缀在你胸口的那株也难逃厄运。

一箭在腹部，一箭在心口。

曾经连你脸上的阴影都带着悲伤和疲倦，水蓝色眼眸的深处是埋藏不住快要溢出的痛苦。

为什么你如此执着，直到这一刻才终于放手？

你睡在木柴筑成的塔座上，穿着黑色天鹅绒的袍子，眉眼安详。你是梦到了和父亲拥抱，和兄长举杯痛饮，还是，一家团聚的天伦之乐？

But it’s too late for a family, and Denethor set a fire to himself and got burnt.

感谢上帝，当这一切都永远的失去，他赐给了你伊欧汶，洛汗国最美丽最勇敢的公主。

——记《八月照相馆》

阿月。

我在心里轻轻的叫着。

这个我曾经温柔的，疯狂的，绝望的叫过无数次的名字，在这一刻却显得空洞而陌生。月，Light，即使嘴唇开合发出同样的声音，但我比谁都清楚，这已不再是你的名字。

那已在你一次又一次嘲弄世界之后化为灰烬。

“这是个很奇怪的名字吧。”你若无其事的牵起我的手，戏谑的笑容浮上完美的侧脸。你的目光游移过我的轮廓，沉浸在自己的关于那个神的梦想。

我乖乖的握紧你的手“恩”了一声，扬起所有的仰慕用最最满足的目光凝视着你。

每次你的掌心都不带任何温度的冰冷，直穿到我的骨髓里。

就像演戏一样，是的，就像演戏。

我最大的欢乐是爱上了你。

当L说出我和你很相衬的时候，我和L成了朋友。喜欢吃甜食，总是黑眼圈，头发乱蓬蓬，光脚蹲坐的L。

直到你冷眼看着勺子从他颤抖的指尖跌落，那个睁大双眼想挽留生命的L，那个视你为第一个朋友的孩子气的L，那个坦白说你和他很像的L。

我说过我从来不背叛朋友。

但是我错了。

他是阻碍你的敌人，那他就只能死。

我是心甘情愿、义无返顾的跌入魔鬼的沼泽的。作为我食言的报应，注定我也逃不出被你丢弃的命数。

我最大的罪也是爱上了你。

审判日。

你高举着手中沉重的死神之镰，清秀的脸庞和冷傲的笑容，就是那种眼神，你带着这种睥睨的眼神俯视世间亟待裁决的愚蠢人类，我终究也是其中之一。

执迷不悟早就铸成静静安放在我心口的小小的白色棺材。

即使如此，我也感到无比荣幸，荣幸成为你剧中的一个角色。请你踩着我的尸体往上走，直到那之前无人可及的高度。

如果渗入手中的血色无法洗净，就让我来承担你所有的杀戮，代替你坠入地狱的九重深渊。

所有人是你玻璃匣中被颠来倒去的玩偶，他们听你的命令，贯彻你的信仰。

这是你的梦想，亦是我的梦想。

我唯一难过的是不能亲眼见到世界重生的那天——看人们虔诚的膜拜你，爬到你的脚下亲吻你权力的指环，渴望被赐予神的荣光。

我真的很遗憾。

阿月。

再见。

你不再需要我，我的离去反会带走你眼里的一粒沙子。没有人能够伤害你。

你是新时代的神，无懈可击。

Vois sur ton chemin
Gamins oubliés égarés
Donne leur la main
Pour les mener
Vers d'autres lendemains

Sens au coeur de la nuit
L'onde d'espoir
Ardeur de la vie
Sentier de gloire

Bonheurs enfantins
Trop vite oubliés effacés
Une lumière dorée brille sans fin
Tout au bout du chemin

Sens au coeur de la nuit
L'onde d'espoir
Ardeur de la vie
Sentier de la gloire